No relationships, moved multiple times, and never stayed at a job for long. Sounds like a recipe for having no roots or committed friendships/community as you chased the cornucopia of worldly experiences… that has now dried up and been found wanting.

You’ve got plenty of time. What you need is connections. Who/what/how is up to you, and talking to an understanding person about it (parents, lifelong friend, pastor, therapist) would probably help more than us all here.