Yeah I can still drive. In fact, I’ve had episodes while driving.

It’s not dangerous. I still know where I am, how to drive, and what’s going on. It just doesn’t feel like I’m doing it. So if I think “I need to pull over” and then I pull over, it’s as if I’ve observed myself doing that in some sort of higher abstracted state. I’ve thought the action into reality, but I had no connection to my body doing the action.

The hard part to explain is that I can still “feel” my body during these episodes. But it just feels like data being processed by my brain. I have no sense that the things I’m feeling are me, or a part of me. This is why the video game analogy sometimes works.

If you’re playing a game you’re making decisions, you’re physically controlling the actions (through a keyboard or controller). You might even have some haptic feedback that you can feel. But you have no sense of that character being you. You have no ego connection to that character, at least not in any meaningful way.

That’s what these episodes feel like. It’s like experiencing an ego death, just very quickly and without any lead up or warning.