Most of my problems lay in the fact that I do not like the way I am right now but do not have the power to get there or the power to make peace with myself. It's cliche but it IS impossible. Yeah it is a bog I made for myself but I did not ask for it.

I kinda think this is a genetic thing. My father is like that too -- he is never happy, rarely content with himself, even when he already achieved a lot.