The problem with this world is that 80% of people think they are above average and from the remaining 20% most are above average and thinking they are below average (~bastardized quote from some famous guy)

I'm almost willing to bet that you did more than good enough work and if you still want to become a (n even) great(er) programmer I'm sure there's quite a few OSS projects you could contribute to as well if you wanted to :))

Re:matching it you could also spread it amongst a couple of projects.

Anyway have a great day