Yep, when I was a young programmer I lived in dread of an outage or worse been responsible for a serious bug in production, then I got to watch what happened when it happened to others (and that time I dropped the prod database at half past four on a Friday).

When everything is some varying degree of broken at all times been responsible for a brief uptick in the background brokenness isn't the drama you think it is.

It would be different if the systems I worked on where true life and death (ATC/Emergency Services etc) but in reality the blast radius from my fucking up somewhere is monetary and even at the biggest company I worked for constrained (while 100+K per hour from an outage sounds horrific - in reality the vast majority of that was made up when the service was back online, people still needed to order the thing in the end).